It was January 2017. I was standing next to my bed talking with my husband, crying after I had found this image of the woman with the hemorrhage receiving healing. I’d asked for healing, hadn’t I? Lots of times. But, asked my husband, were you really open to it? Did you believe He would heal you?
No. I hadn’t. I had bought into the lie that He want me to suffer, that my happiness was only for the afterlife.
But when I looked around at the havoc this mysterious illness was wrecking on my family it seemed clear that this was not of God. So I took a deep breath and opened my heart, the one that had been shut with pain and bitterness, and asked very simply “Jesus, will you heal me?” As I’ve learned since then, it’s these simple, heartfelt prayers that He answers most quickly.
About a month later I came across the Dynamic Neural Retraining System. It was only $300 for the at home DVD set, no follow ups, just do the program. It seemed to good to be true financially- that was pennies in the pail compared to what we’d already spent on supplements, special food, and various practitioners. So we took the leap.
As I watched the DVDs a spark began to grow inside of me – this makes so much sense! It’s JUST MY BRAIN. Whoooooa! It’s not me and I can fix it! It’s hard work, they say, it requires lots of dedication and focus, lots of repetition. Well, I’ve BEEN doing that – you think it’s easy to eat for 3 on a fat free diet consisting of 20 foods? To tell my kids everyday, that no, we can’t go to the park? To try to figure out how to adequately care for the house and kids when I couldn’t do any of the work? If all that effort and willpower actually goes somewhere it will be more than worth it!
The defining moment during my learning of the program was when Annie (the creator and presenter of the program) got quiet for a moment, looked around at everyone, and said, “There is divine intelligence inside each one of you that knows perfect health.” My human spirit, somewhere in the depths of me whispered, that is true. And so, the journey began. Within a few weeks of doing the work it became obvious that yes, perfect health DID already exist inside of me! All it took was about 40 minutes of complete euphoria and I was me again, able to do everything I’d always been able to do.
Within a week, I was driving again. Within a month, I went from hardly being walk around my house to walking several miles a day in addition to doing a great job of caring for my house and kids (and being damn happy about it too – I can sweep the floor! I can do the laundry! I can make dinner! All in the same day! Booyah!). I vowed never to take these abilities for granted again.
And every. single. time I practice (which is 3- 4 times per day), and as I practice the other pillars of DNRS, I’ve realized that healing only comes from that place of absolute faith and expectation. That deep knowing that, YES! Jesus desires my full healing, YES! I deeply desire my full healing and freedom in Him, and the tiny whisper yes, yes Jesus, here is my heart, here is…all of me. Take me, heal me, set me free. I only want You.
The Eye of the Needle 